Friday, April 01, 2005

whittling down this girlish figure

I haven't liked mirrors for a couple of years, with the exception of a day or two here or there. Generally I try to stay away from them, because I never feel quite pretty. Or, I'll feel pretty, but won't look the way I expect myself to.

This semester, I've been on an exercise regimen; aerobics for an hour, three times a week. The studio we work out in has floor-to-ceiling mirrors, and I always stayed at the back of the class and avoided looking at myself in the mirrors, because I didn't think I looked too great. Today, there wasn't room at the back, so I had to take my mat and step so I was in the second row, just one person away from the mirrors. I was thunderstruck. I was wearing my (size small!) workout pants and a tanktop, and I felt -- and thought I looked -- BEAUTIFUL. I kept grinning at myself in the mirror like a doofus, because I couldn't get over it. I looked cute! And somehow, I feel more confident, sexier; I think it's a combination of the new hair colour, the weight I've lost, and knowing I was wearing a size small.

9 comments:

Anonymous said...

I don't get the whole size small is beter thing.
-C

djm said...

that's because most guys want to be big and bulky and Manlike. :P

Anonymous said...

Yes. I see that you understand us.

-C

Jen said...

Nika, I've always thought you were beautiful... It does make me sad to think that so many girls judge their beauty on their size. My sister Wejo is one of the most beautiful girls I know, and there is no way it is because she is tiny. Not to be mean or anything, but she's not. But she's gorgeous.
However, I am glad that you feel good about yourself. Just try to not let it be because you wear a size small.

Jen said...

Hmm... for some reason it's not showing my comment unless I click to make another one. Hmmm..

Anonymous said...

What?
-C

Anonymous said...

Oh never mind.

-C

Beth said...

rock ON. it's such a great feeling :)

djm said...

hey Jenni! Thanks. :) And, it's not defining me...it's just a pretty darn good feeling, psychically (or whatever ;P ).

Indeed it is, Bethie, indeeeeeed.