Sunday, August 14, 2005

the boy soldier.

I met his parents today, and it's such a puzzle, how those sets of genes colliding had this result. Sweep clear the canvas of your mind, and allow me to paint a picture. He's six feet tall, slender and clean-cut, with beautiful hands and long, strong fingers. His eyes, a rich hazel, are set under dark, straight brows, and he smiles easily, showing a set of perfect teeth. The hair on his head is cut short, thanks to the National Guard, and the last time I saw him, he was in uniform, camoflauge wrinkle-free and boots so shiny you could see the hot summer sun reflecting off them. I found out the day before yesterday that he's been activated, that he just got back from Basic.

Today, he told me he fell in love with me last year.

The day after tomorrow, he'll be shipped out to a fort in the South for the next few months, then overseas to Kuwait for a year. He wishes there were more time before he had to leave.

And it all breaks my heart. I didn't tell him I love him, because it was very much out of the blue, and I haven't seen him for so long; and I don't care for him like that yet. He told me I'd better be available when he gets back from Kuwait.

We're going to write to each other over the next fifteen months. I can't promise him my heart, but I can be someone to write to, someone who will send silly letters back, letters about what's going on here, letters to cheer him and help him get through all those months when he's lonely and scared.


Padnon said...

Your sister is very efficient xD

dänika said...

lol, thanks Romain. :P

Di said...

"He told me I'd better be available when he gets back from Kuwait" That's so cute:) I think I'd definitely try and be available when he comes back:)

dänika said...

It was cute. :) It's a very touchy situation, though; I don't want him to think of me as 'his girl back home,' because I'm not.

He called yesterday and asked if I could meet him in town this afternoon; I'm seeing him again for a couple of minutes before he leaves.

It's so sad.

Sarah said...

Yikes, 'Nik - that IS crazy. Wow. Sounds as if you have a very healthy perspective though! Good for you! I think you're handling it perfectly. :-) Poor guy... Reminds me of one of my brother's friends, Justin. He is also National Guard and has already been in Iraq for several months - was wounded and won an award for bravery/valor in stopping a suicide car bomber. But I don't think these young National Guard guys should be the one having to do this serious stuff! I don't understand why they don't have the ground troops be all Army... *sigh* I support this effort, but I just don't see why young college students and middle-age dads have been activated for duty such as this... They did't even have the right training for this type warfare... It just doesn't make sense to me.

Di said...

That can be touchy, I agree..I know my brother had a girlfriend back home and she dumped him while he was over there, so there can be good and bad things about it. As long as he knows your thoughts and feelings on the situation before he leaves, I think that writing to him and sending stuff is a good way to go.

Padnon said...

It's a good motivation to believe that someone is waiting for you whereas you are fighting for ... ok, I don't want to polemize here, not the right place. However, it's also important for the both persons to be sincere and honest. Lies are never the issue IMHO.